Tuesday, December 29, 2009

What are friends for?

This is my sad moment.. but I really need to get it out here. My best friends husband died tragically on Saturday night (Dec 26th). I will leave the details out not only because its personal to everyone involved, but because some people couldn't handle the details. I have had this triangle of friends- we call the "Love Triangle"- me, Brook and Tracy- friends forever- sisters if you will. When you become best friends with someone you vow to always help them and be there through EVERYTHING.... will this definitely takes the cake. Tracy is the strongest out of the three of us, she is a rock, and is hard to crack and get into her circle but once your in... your in. Well, now Brook and I have to be her rock for a while. I have experienced things as a friend I thought I would NEVER have to... this has been the most devastating thing I have ever witnessed.
Its amazing to see all the generous people that come out of the woodwork when something like this happens. To all of you who have donated money, food, firewood, love and compassion- GOD BLESS YOU!! I truly didn't realize how many people are out there who will lend a hand or give anything they have when given the opportunity. Thanks to everyone for the emotional support as well, for Tracy, the kids, the family, and for me to.
I would like to also tribute Ken. Even though this wasn't the best way to leave, I understand why it happened. We will never know the battles you fought... but we LOVE you! I will NEVER be able to go camping or to Las Vegas without thinking of you and raising a toast! Thanks for loving my best friend with more love than she could ever realize! Thanks for being such a great Dad to the kids- they worshiped the ground you walked on. You were truly a loving and kind person who never worried about yourself- only everyone else. I hope you are with Marty. Work hard in heaven, conquer your battles, become your best self. I am sending all my love. Please watch over your family.
To Tracy, I have already vowed my life and any extra time I have to you. You would do the same for me. I love you and will help you get through this, I promise. The road is going to be long and hard but we will make it!!! Your not alone- EVER! I have prayed for you the last few days, and that's something I haven't done in years. Please hang on... we love you.
To the rest of everyone who reads this... hug your family and friends every time you see them. Let them know you care... you never know when someone needs just a little something. Live every day like its you last. Life flies by.

Friday, December 18, 2009


Sorry there havent been any posts forever, in our money saving ways we have canceled our internet because I can use it at work when I need to. So sorry that the last blog is from Halloween, soon we will be back up and running at our house and I will post pics and whatnot. I start the RN program on the 4th of Jan, which means that I am done at the clinic, the 23rd is my last day. I am bittersweet about it, there have been so many things going on down there lately that there are things I am glad to be leaving, but I will miss my friends, doctor, and some of the patients. So back to the care center I go...... not sure how I feel about that either. What is it about this time of year that is so STRESSFUL, DEPRESSING, and CHAOTIC?!? Shouldnt we be grateful for what we have and enjoy the holidays?? It seems that each year gets worse, I want to just pack up and leave and forget the whole damn thing. So anyways, I know I need to change my attitude but things are just not quite where I want them to be. But off to the program I go and know that even though I will be twice and busy and stressed that at the end of July I will be a better person, make more money, and have a more versatile job that I will be able to find where I belong in the nursing world. I am really considering going on to PA school instead of Nurse Practicioner... so we'll see where I end up. Hope you all have a great Christmas and I will post as soon as I can.