Sunday, August 2, 2009

The little things

Well, right now I am working (Ambulance) and came home to tuck my little AnGeLs (HA HA HA) into bed... and they looked so cute, I had to post a little something. (Especially because Brynlee has pulled a big spot of her CUTE pink paint off of her wall since I made her bed this morning!!!! So I am trying to focus on something positive right now.) However mad they make me at times I would not trade them for AnYtHiNg! Being a mother is one of God's greatest ReWaRdInG CHALLENGES. From the second you find out your pregnant it doesnt end until 6 feet below ground 70+ years later... and I think even then, we still watch over our kids. We as mothers are to dry the tears, kiss the owies and broken hearts, hug them until they scream "I cant breathe!", give them piggie back rides, learn how to play Barbies all over again, learn how to be a truck driver, check on them at least twice every night before we can go to bed our weary selves, the list goes on and on. In return however, we get to watch them grow, get millions of hugs and I love you's (that by the way are Mommy's FAVORITE hugs!!), and eventually they will get married and give me grandbabies, (hopefully not for at LEAST 20+ years).
I know I am not the only mother who worries and fears that something horrible will happen to their children, believe me, I have seen some HORRIFIC things working for Gold Cross that have changed me FOREVER. I will NEVER go to bed mad at my kids, without hugging and kissing them and letting them know how MUCH I love them. I will not let anger change the way I am, I will pick my battles and only worry about the big things... not so much the little things. I will take them to do things, go to the park, swimming, camping, because really.... in the scheme of things.... what is an hour?? Its more than an hour to them... its much more.
However I am still learning as a mother- and I will admit Brynlee is my learning experience, the oldest always is. But I love her and there is not a better daughter out there! She is so PrEcIoUs and WoNdErFuL!! She has come such a long ways with her speech, you would never know she ever struggled, she is so smart (too much most of the time) and she is so beautiful and HaPpY all the time! Brynlee I love you!! Your incredible and I will always be there for you no matter WHAT... as your mom and your friend.
Caeden... what a treasure you are, can they get more boy than you?? I mean really, we are still counting the big trucks anytime we go to town... and it makes me laugh and have such a warm feeling in my heart when you get up in the big truck with your dad and you are GlOwInG with such pride.... it makes me smile! I love how you need to come in and make sure I am still in the house and give me a kiss and tell me you are going back to work... outside in the dirt yard (what are you going to do when we have a lawn???) You will FoReVeR be mommies little boy!
And then there is David, I cant forget you.... thanks for EvErYtHiNg!! I love you.... even when I tell you I could wrap my hands around your neck... Thanks for all you do.... and lets keep working on things everyday... as long as we work together it will all be ok.
Thanks to all the friends, family (JaNeen, Tracy, Monica) I love you too and honestly most days I have NO CLUE where I would be without you... I love you all!

By the way this is our new family member... I think Brynlee has decided Pepper is her name... I just call her puppy.

YeS, that is a Hannah Montana hat... what can I say?


  1. Good post Ash! love it! Your kids are too cute! I also love checking on Rylee a couple times before i go to bed!

  2. Okay seriously, I must be out of wack, but I am totally balling reading your post. I hardly ever cry and for some reason I sit here tears streaming down my face, just thinking about all of the same things with my kids. I love being a mom, it is the BEST! You are such a good mommy. I love you and I am so glad that we are friends. Hug those cute little ones for me. It has been too long.